My Fluttering Mind

The day started, I was already exhausted from the night before. Very much lack of sleep, tossing, too much noise, too much noisy thoughts. I feel as if something came over me, might as well get used to this feeling, walk up and introduce myself to it, feels like it’s going to be an ongoing…

I didn’t update yesterday because, I guess my mind was occupied. For a little segment of time I didn’t necessarily feel like emptying my heart- which I guess could be a good thing in this sense? I’ve mentioned before that everyone handles death and grieving differently. Me, especially recently, I haven’t been able to have…

I woke today, tired as per. Thought I’d be ready to take on the day. A little something came over me, not sure if it was a little dad trigger, an irrational fear that came into my mind, or the onset of my ‘aunt flow’ visiting; but the waterworks ensued as I was wiping down…

I tried keeping it together yesterday as I managed to leave the house. I feel my period may be coming on and needing to pick up medicine from the pharmacy, I went to the grocery store to treat myself to some sad snacks. I would like to pay tribute to my father as much and…

It’s been roughly, 7.5 hours since my dad passed. I wouldn’t say this is the second day since, but definitely the first waking morning where life just feels.. off. I’m not good at these kinds of things, nor confronting people in their darkest hours(most so related to death), so when it comes to my own…

My dad passed early Friday evening. Just we all were gathered and said out final goodbyes, he felt ready to drift into his final sleep a mere four hours after we left him. As an ode to him, to my sanity, and not be drowned by my impending thoughts, I’ve decided to write. Write to…